I only recently learned about this very special week and while I am
doing this post up for a friend I do know what it feels like to be
bullied and I know that this can come in many forms.
I have been bullied by family,friends and even total strangers and all
of it hurts. If you would not want it done to yourself then do not do
it to others.
I guess the easiest thing to do is to list examples of times and
people who have bullied me.
Kids in high school - This may seem like the big thing that everyone
talks about but it is where the bulk of this hurt goes down. I have
been through a lot in my life and at one point I had started cutting
myself. People told me I was just doing it to get noticed or they told
me how stupid I was for doing it. I knew it was stupid and I know that
now but in all honesty it dose not change a thing. I see an the news
how even in death Amanda Todd is bullied and I know just how she felt.
Sure things did not get as bad for me but they could have. High school
was pretty much hell for me. I eventually just stopped going to school
and though I am in school now I have yet to graduate.
Mother in law - This is a form of bullying that is still going on and
though I know she will not see it that way I do. The name calling, the
disrespect, the petty remarks, it's all bullying! If someone makes you
feel like crap every day they are being a bully.
Brothers and sisters- Now I have to say upfront that things with my
siblings are good at the moment and I love them to death but there has
been times where things have gotten bad. The hateful things my
siblings said about me at times had my parents wanting nothing to do
with me. Siblings fight yes but I still think of it as a form of
Strangers- People call me fat, call me a bad mother, call me all sorts
of names for the way I look. So I have piercings, tattoos and love to
dye my hair wild colors. That dose not give every person on the street
the right to call me out on it. One remark can easily destroy a
person. Lucky for me they did not but it dose still hurt when I see
the disgusted looks people give me.
I feel all my examples are lame but I know that somewhere out there
there is someone that has gone through the same thing or worse and
talking about it is really the only way to take a stand.
Watch what you say out there. Do not type things you will regret when
others see it. I know that I need to take more of my own advice
because I rant about people I don't like on here all the time. There
is a time and a place. Everyone makes mistakes but it's what we do or
don't do about it. Not sure that made sense but I am about to fall
into a food coma after everything I ate today.
Thursday, November 22, 2012
I only recently learned about this very special week and while I am
Monday, November 12, 2012
WEll we are finally in the new house and though I am stuck with crappy dial up and tones of laundry it is good to be home and out of the home of the monster-in-law. Things just kept getting worse there and I was glad when we were finally able to move out.
WE have been int he new place for a week now and it feels great to not be stuck in one room for fear of pissing someone off. I can happily run through my house screaming how much I hate my mother in law without making her mad. Hell I can watch tv or eat without her trying to start a fight so it's great!
I almost thought Iw ould not be able to post to my blog anymore thanks to my dialup being so slow but hopefully thanks to ScribeFire I will be able to start posting to my blog again. Not really sure just what I will say but atleast I know I can do it.
So lets home you guys are able to read this. Then again I have no clue if I will recive any comments or be abl to see them haha. Gotta work out all the bugs but I will figure it out
See ya ^.^
Friday, October 19, 2012
I'm going to build myself a lemon cannon and start pegging people with the damn things. Screw making lemonade I'd rather enjoy shooting other people then drown in the amount of lemonade I could make right now.
Yes I know that there are better ways to handle my feelings but that one sounds too good to pass up. I am beyond threw with dealing with everything and I can only hope it ends soon and I can start being happy again
Thursday, September 13, 2012
The Monster-In-Law is really getting on my last nerve. She mimicked me yesterday! Like a fucking child and she did it thinking I would not hear her! What's even worse is she mimicked the fact that I was having trouble breathing.
I like next to a cotton field and am quite allergic to whatever the plat gives off this time of year. Couple that with a cold front pushing through it made my asthma act up bad so even trying to clean my stuffy nose caused me to be out of breath.
She decided she would mimic me as she walked down the hall. I am really sick of her crap. There is nothing I can do to make her happy and I am sick of trying. I can not wait until I am from under her thumb because once I know I am safe from getting hit I plan to tear her new one.
Yes I know I should face her head on but I have two kids and they don't need their mother being seen with a black eye because their grandmother is a bitch.
Hopefully it will all get better soon. Crying yourself to sleep every night is no way to live.
It's really not.
It's something new every day and it's driving me up the wall. I don't cook right I don't clean right, I don't talk or dress right.
We actually had a pretty big fight not long back and she admitted to doing everything she cold to get me to leave. She has never liked that I am with her baby boy. I love my husband and that bitch can hit me with everything she has but she will not get me to leave the man of my dreams. She can just suck it!
Sadly I still find myself trying to make her happy if only to keep the peace. I need to stop being such a good person but I guess it's just the way I was brought up.
I'm done ranting. It makes my head hurt.
Until next time.
Monday, September 3, 2012
Shes the kind of girl that lures you in and then screws you over. Sadly I feel for her little act more than once and I hate myself for it.
She has everyone fooled and she gets away with so much crap. I could tell you all her dark little secrets but I'm honestly a much better person than that. One day she will get whats coming to her and when she dose I really hope it is an ordeal that she dose not survive.
At one point in time i was in a relationship with this girl. Well she cheated on me and didn't even have the guts to tell me or the guy she was with. She just started dating him and when I found out she acted as if we had never been together but oh how she loves to brag about having me as a gf. Yeah I know I'm amazing.
Sadly this is not where that story ends. See the guy she left me for had a best friend. She cheated on her boyfriend with his best friend and then left her boyfriend for the best friend. Though now she is with neither of them. Maybe it's for the best because boyfriend number one swore he was a werewolf and there was an 80% chance he would shift on a full moon and the other would constantly go on and on about being a century's old vampire. He even brought it up in fights, telling people he's had to deal with depression and such for hundreds of years. It was horrible.
Now shes with a kid that looks like he's 12 and a meth head. This poor girl will never learn and with the way she treats me I hope she gets all the hell life has to offer.
No I am not a mean person for bashing this girl. I am a hurt one. She has stolen from me, lies to me, bashed me (tried to fight me) and has even tried stealing my husband. She is no ones friend. -sigh-
It kind of felt good to get all of that out but trust me there is so much more I could say on the subject of Amy and perhaps in another post I will. I can tell you about how I beat the crap out of her and how she lied to everyone even though she was covered in bruises.
Until next time!
Saturday, September 1, 2012
I cant take pills on a schedule to save my life and I can ever stick to routine, though I love coming up with them. It's rather annoying but oh well
I have been watching "Awkward" and I guess all Jenna's blogging got me in the mood to do the same. No one I know in my personal life reads this blog so maybe it's Ok to bash the hell out of them here. Hummmm not really sure but I might just give it a try. After all I do love to right, even if I can never figure out what I want to say.
So here's to a fresh start. The next post on here should be quite interesting. I have lots of pent up frustrations and I think I will write them all out next time.
Monday, July 9, 2012
Where I read the story
I praise Maria for what she did. She was brave to not only make the cab she was in turn back but to take the child with her and do what she could to save the child.
So I guess we go back my question. Would you nurse a child that was not your own? Even if the situation were not like the one Maria face? Let me know and please check out the story.
Wednesday, June 27, 2012
Tuesday, June 26, 2012
Sleeping last night was hard. I never knew there were so many muscles in your eye. If I laid wrong or moved wrong it felt like I was pulling my eye out of it's socket and then when I finally made myself get up around 5am my eye was sealed shut and it took a wile to get it open.
Having no way to pay for or go see a doctor I am left to using OTC and at home remedies. I have some eye drops but they only help for a few minuets. So for I think what seems to be helping the most if Breast milk. Yes I know it may sound very strange but it seems to be helping some. My eye dose look worse today but after cleaning my eye with my milk as well as expressing it and pouring it into my eye I do not seem to be producing as much gunk which seems to be a good thing. It also helps with the pain.
I hope that after a few days it will start to clear up. I am also taking allergy pills since my father thinks that's part of what caused my pink eye. I hope it goes away before this weekend. I have so many things to do, though that will be for another post.
If anyone out there has any good at home fixes for Pinkeye please direct them my way. I heard tea bags can help but I'm not sure which kind I can use or is any kind will help. Right now my biggest problem is the swelling. My eye is nearly closed is so swollen. But yest, here's an update on me haha
(( later I will post a pic of my eye. It's still early morning and dark out and since everyone is sleeping I cant get a good one haha))
Monday, May 14, 2012
Now I know a lot of people may not know what a roleplay is but trust me when I say it is a blast. Think of it as writing a story between two people. It's a great way to pass the time.
I know there are a lot of roleplay sites out there and I have view a lot of them but I find that most expect you to roleplay there on the site in the forms where everyone else can see. I prefer to do my roleplays in private though email or other means. So if you are like me then this site is for you. You can write on the site but it is not required that all your roleplays are out in the open for the world to see.
So if you like to roleplay or know people that do then send them my way!
Also if you take a look at the site let me know what would make it better. I do have other admins but they too have been unreachable so at the moment it is just me trying to make the site a fun place.
Friday, May 11, 2012
Let's see what I can find to write about....
Today I cleaned my living room, well rearranged it it more like it. I've also been working on shampooing the carpet but it's a slow process.
I worked on some laundry as well and once my husband got home from work I went to Wallmart to get things for my youngest's birthday party tomorrow. I still have things I need to get but I plan to get the rest tomorrow before the party.
I still can't believe she's one and I'm still surprised that I am breastfeeding her and the thought of stopping anytime soon stresses me out though I know I will not go past two years with her. I just want her to wean on her own and not force it.
Any who I guess that's all for now. I'm going to go chug the rest of my red bull and try to find someway to entertain myself. Sadly I think that will include going home and working on my house some more. YAYYYYY>........
Wednesday, May 9, 2012
Yes this is not a long post, just wanted to say happy birthday to my baby girl ^.^
Tuesday, May 1, 2012
To say life has been crazy for me would be an understatement. We have had storms, theft, break downs, fights and loads more problems that any family should ever have. I can't wait until things can actually become normal for us. I'm tired of all the drama. It's like living in a soap opera.
Last night the weather was crazy. At one point we were actually all hiding in our bathroom because of a tornado warning. It was crazy. we kept losing tv reception so it was hard to know what was going on and then my dad calls us and tells us to get into the bathroom now. I was freaking out. Thankfully the tornado did not go near our home but we did have family that was slightly effected. Everyone is thankfully safe.
Now it would seem that someone our family trusted is a thief. I honestly should have seen it coming after this girl stole my cellphone and gave it away. I'm still trying to get it back but seeing as a druggie has it the chances of getting it back do not look good. No the phone is small compared to my husbands laptop and my purse being stolen. I have searched the house a hundred times over to make sure and we have a friend that says that the girl who stole these items was bragging to him about it but when my father asked her about it she played innocent. That bitch is going down! -Que evil laughter-
Cars cars cars. oh how I hate them. My own car has been broken down for a long time and we have no idea whats wrong with it. My parents car is also a mess but after a lot of money on my part it is finally running again. Let's just hope that it keeps running. having to beg for rides from people was not fun at all.
There's so much I could say here, so many people I want to bash here but I know that would not be the best thing, even though I bashed the ex-family thief. she lucky I don't disclose her name, address, a photo of her and her SSN. yes I hate her that much. ANYWHO I guess that's all for now. This post was more of a strange rant, a way to vent and get some things i can't say to my family out in the open because it causes more dram.
Till next time!
Wednesday, April 18, 2012
My friends are strange as well, at least the few that I have are. Now I know a whole bunch of people but other than my family there are only a few people I actually consider my friends and they are anything but normal.
I make my point is saying that my BFF told me just moments ago that the reason bunny's shed so much is that they can create more bunny's. Ewwwwwwwww. I agree that bunny's are cute and fluffy and I just want to pick them up and cuddle with them but they scare the crap out of me!
I'd tell you about other friends of mine but that would mean going into the strange world of my family and that would be a whole post in it's self. So yes this post has been weird but hey it's a post ^.^