Lemons

They say life gives you lemons. I must have a whole damn farm of them and I'm sick of it. If it's not one thing it's another. First we get told we are getting into the house and then we don't. We don't have a running car, people are trying to kill themselves and i'm surrounded by so much anger that I can hardly breath.

I'm going to build myself a lemon cannon and start pegging people with the damn things. Screw making lemonade I'd rather enjoy shooting other people then drown in the amount of lemonade I could make right now.

Yes I know that there are better ways to handle my feelings but that one sounds too good to pass up. I am beyond threw with dealing with everything and I can only hope it ends soon and I can start being happy again

She won't stop!

I am really getting tired of all of this drama. Every day there is something there to upset me and though I try not to let it get to me it is really not something I can help.

The Monster-In-Law is really getting on my last nerve. She mimicked me yesterday! Like a fucking child and she did it thinking I would not hear her! What's even worse is she mimicked the fact that I was having trouble breathing.

I like next to a cotton field and am quite allergic to whatever the plat gives off this time of year. Couple that with a cold front pushing through it made my asthma act up bad so even trying to clean my stuffy nose caused me to be out of breath.

She decided she would mimic me as she walked down the hall. I am really sick of her crap. There is nothing I can do to make her happy and I am sick of trying. I can not wait until I am from under her thumb because once I know I am safe from getting hit I plan to tear her  new one.

Yes I know I should face her head on but I have two kids and they don't need their mother being seen with a black eye because their grandmother is a bitch.

Hopefully it will all get better soon. Crying yourself to sleep every night is no way to live.

It's really not.

It's something new every day and it's driving me up the wall. I don't cook right I don't clean right, I don't talk or dress right.

We actually had a pretty big fight not long back and she admitted to doing everything she cold to get me to leave. She has never liked that I am with her baby boy. I love my husband and that bitch can hit me with everything she has but she will not get me to leave the man of my dreams. She can just suck it!

Sadly I still find myself trying to make her happy if only to keep the peace. I need to stop being such a good person but I guess it's just the way I was brought up.

I'm done ranting. It makes my head hurt.

Until next time.

 

A is for Amy who I pushed down the stairs

Oh how I could make this title come true. There is a Amy in my life that I want to push down the stairs.

Shes the kind of girl that lures you in and then screws you over. Sadly I feel for her little act more than once and I hate myself for it.

She has everyone fooled and she gets away with so much crap. I could tell you all her dark little secrets but I'm honestly a much better person than that. One day she will get whats coming to her and when she dose I really hope it is an ordeal that she dose not survive.

At one point in time i was in a relationship with this girl. Well she cheated on me and didn't even have the guts to tell me or the guy she was with. She just started dating him and when I found out she acted as if we had never been together but oh how she loves to brag about having me as a gf. Yeah I know I'm amazing.

Sadly this is not where that story ends. See the guy she left me for had a best friend. She cheated on her boyfriend with his best friend and then left her boyfriend for the best friend. Though now she is with neither of them. Maybe it's for the best because boyfriend number one swore he was a werewolf and there was an 80% chance he would shift on a full moon and the other would constantly go on and on about being a century's old vampire. He even brought it up in fights, telling people he's had to deal with depression and such for hundreds of years. It was horrible.

Now shes with a kid that looks like he's 12 and a meth head. This poor girl will never learn and with the way she treats me I hope she gets all the hell life has to offer.

No I am not a mean person for bashing this girl. I am a hurt one. She has stolen from me, lies to me, bashed me (tried to fight me) and has even tried stealing my husband. She is no ones friend. -sigh-

It kind of felt good to get all of that out but trust me there is so much more I could say on the subject of Amy and perhaps in another post I will. I can tell you about how I beat the crap out of her and how she lied to everyone even though she was covered in bruises.

Until next time!

A penny for my thoughts? How about a $20?

I ever post on this blog anymore. I'm a bad blogger. Not really even sure who reads this site aside from my bestie. I guess juggling two blogs was a bit hard on me, then again keeping up with anything on a regular basis is hard for me.

I cant take pills on a schedule to save my life and I can ever stick to routine, though I love coming up with them. It's rather annoying but oh well

I have been watching "Awkward" and I guess all Jenna's blogging got me in the mood to do the same. No one I know in my personal life reads this blog so maybe it's Ok to bash the hell out of them here. Hummmm not really sure but I might just give it a try. After all I do love to right, even if I can never figure out what I want to say.

So here's to a fresh start. The next post on here should be quite interesting. I have lots of pent up frustrations and I think I will write them all out next time.

Till then!

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Would you nurse a child that was not your own?

I was surfing the web today when I came across an article that really made me think. Would you breastfeed a child that was not your own? I have to say that I would. Now I am not saying I am going to go around feeding other women's babies but if put in the situation Maria Kristensen was put in I know that I would do just as she did. She found this child in a bag on the side of the road. It was clear to her that the baby had been delivered that day, blood still on her head and the umbilical cord still attached. I have to say that the thought of someone leaving a child on the side of the road hurts. I  am sure the mother had her reasons and seeing as this happened in Denmark even more so but still, how could someone just do that to their child?

Where I read the story

I praise Maria for what she did. She was brave to not only make the cab she was in turn back but to take the child with her and do what she could to save the child.

So I guess we go back my question. Would you nurse a child that was not your own? Even if the situation were not like the one Maria face? Let me know and please check out the story.

Pink eye update!

Well I sadly now have it in both eyes. my biggest fear has come true. Thankfully my other eye is starting to heal and I have my mommy milk to thank for it. Hopefully I will have it pretty much knocked out before the weekend because this thing is no fun. And I have decided I will not post pics because I hate looking at myself with it haha. It's not pretty at all.

 

Pink eye :(

This totally sucks. Sarah, my youngest daughter has given me Pink Eye. I don't think she has it though I got it because her eyes are all gunked up. It always seems to happen to her after she is getting over being sick. I really hope she dose not get it because if she dose then she will have it in both eyes and right now I am desperately trying to prevent that from happening to myself.

Sleeping last night was hard. I never knew there were so many muscles in your eye. If I laid wrong or moved wrong it felt like I was pulling my eye out of it's socket and then when I finally made myself get up around 5am my eye was sealed shut and it took a wile to get it open.

Having no way to pay for or go see a doctor I am left to using OTC and at home remedies. I have some eye drops but they only help for a few minuets. So for I think what seems to be helping the most if Breast milk. Yes I know it may sound very strange but it seems to be helping some. My eye dose look worse today but after cleaning my eye with my milk as well as expressing it and pouring it into my eye I do not seem to be producing as much gunk which seems to be a good thing. It also helps with the pain.

I hope that after a few days it will start to clear up. I am also taking allergy pills since my father thinks that's part of what caused my pink eye. I hope it goes away before this weekend. I have so many things to do, though that will be for another post.

If anyone out there has any good at home fixes for Pinkeye please direct them my way. I heard tea bags can help but I'm not sure which kind I can use or is any kind will help. Right now my biggest problem is the swelling. My eye is nearly closed is so swollen. But yest, here's an update on me haha

BYE!

(( later I will post a pic of my eye. It's still early morning and dark out and since everyone is sleeping I cant get a good one haha))