Disasters

It just seems like everything in my life is one big fail right now.

I wanted to do book rivews but I can't get in the mood to read.

Our garden was finally doing amazing and then this storm hit and it hailed for over half an hour and it destroyed it all as well as flooded my garage and destroyed a ton of my things.

Our truck is still not working and the guy we bought it from could care less.

I just want something to go right. I'm tired of being constantly depressed and right now that's how everyday is for me and I have no distractions.

I just need things to get better.

Read and write

So I got an idea tonight. I love to read and though I have never written a book review it really can't be that hard.

What I plan to do is go through my current book collection and start reading and then write up reviews. I figuered it would be a good way to get in more blog posts.

It also helps that I'm a very fast reader.

So, while I will be picking from my own library I would love it if anyone that reads this blog would send me recommendations. 

Please note that I have a thing about reading books in order so I can't read a book that's in the middle of a series without reading the books that come before it. I'm the same way with TV and it drives my husband crazy.

So send me your titles and I will get to work.

Pepper Problems

So I have an addiction to jalapeno peppers with cream cheese and wrapped in bacon.

My problem with them is when I get one that us nothing but heat. Not even the flavor of the bacon comes through, just raw white heat. I hate it

It really just ruins it to wait forever for the things to cook only to get that raw heat. I eat them all anyway and always feel very fat after haha

Craigslist idiots

I have very little faith in mankind. If people can not read then what is this world coming to?
I've been trying to find homes for a litter of puppies we have and I am using Craigslist to do so. Its really starting to just be a load of stress.
I laid it all out in the post. I listed the breed, put up photos, put up all the info you could ever want and more. Sadly I have to tell people that info over and over and over.
Are they free? Yes. It says they are free not just in the title you clicked on but in the post.
What breed are they? This is also listed in both places.
Where are you located? Yet again. It is listed.
It is just crazy!!!! You have to scroll to the bottom of the post to get my contact info so why not just read a little before you call?
Sadly I still have a few pups left so I get to continue putting up with these people.
Bleh!!!!

Not happy happy happy

I'm not really sure I'm happy with my life lately. Everything just seems to be going wrong and just when I think they might be getting better something else happens.

My ex called me the other day. It would not be a big deal had he not been trying to take my daughter away from me the last time I spoke to him.

He called because of an ad I have up on Craigslist to find homes for the puppies we have. I know that he was not searching me out but it still bothers me that he now has my phone numbers and knows what city I live in.

It would be nice if life could just be simple for a while. I'm always angry or depressed and I really do hate it.

I could go on and on about the things that are bugging me but I'm not here to write you a book. I do feel a bit better writing some of this out though, even if it may be confusing to others.

Anti-Bullying Week

I only recently learned about this very special week and while I am
doing this post up for a friend I do know what it feels like to be
bullied and I know that this can come in many forms.

I have been bullied by family,friends and even total strangers and all
of it hurts. If you would not want it done to yourself then do not do
it to others.


I guess the easiest thing to do is to list examples of times and
people who have bullied me.


Kids in high school - This may seem like the big thing that everyone
talks about but it is where the bulk of this hurt goes down. I have
been through a lot in my life and at one point I had started cutting
myself. People told me I was just doing it to get noticed or they told
me how stupid I was for doing it. I knew it was stupid and I know that
now but in all honesty it dose not change a thing. I see an the news
how even in death Amanda Todd is bullied and I know just how she felt.
Sure things did not get as bad for me but they could have. High school
was pretty much hell for me. I eventually just stopped going to school
and though I am in school now I have yet to graduate.



Mother in law - This is a form of bullying that is still going on and
though I know she will not see it that way I do. The name calling, the
disrespect, the petty remarks, it's all bullying! If someone makes you
feel like crap every day they are being a bully.



Brothers and sisters- Now I have to say upfront that things with my
siblings are good at the moment and I love them to death but there has
been times where things have gotten bad. The hateful things my
siblings said about me at times had my parents wanting nothing to do
with me. Siblings fight yes but I still think of it as a form of
bullying.



Strangers- People call me fat, call me a bad mother, call me all sorts
of names for the way I look. So I have piercings, tattoos and love to
dye my hair wild colors. That dose not give every person on the street
the right to call me out on it. One remark can easily destroy a
person. Lucky for me they did not but it dose still hurt when I see
the disgusted looks people give me.


I feel all my examples are lame but I know that somewhere out there
there is someone that has gone through the same thing or worse and
talking about it is really the only way to take a stand.


Watch what you say out there. Do not type things you will regret when
others see it. I know that I need to take more of my own advice
because I rant about people I don't like on here all the time. There
is a time and a place. Everyone makes mistakes but it's what we do or
don't do about it. Not sure that made sense but I am about to fall
into a food coma after everything I ate today.

Home at last!

WEll we are finally in the new house and though I am stuck with crappy dial up and tones of laundry it is good to be home and out of the home of the monster-in-law. Things just kept getting worse there and I was glad when we were finally able to move out.

 

WE have been int he new place for a week now and it feels great to not be stuck in one room for fear of pissing someone off. I can happily run through my house screaming how much I hate my mother in law without making her mad. Hell I can watch tv or eat without her trying to start a fight so it's great!

 

I almost thought Iw ould not be able to post to my blog anymore thanks to my dialup being so slow but hopefully thanks to ScribeFire I will be able to start posting to my blog again. Not really sure just what I will say but atleast I know I can do it.

 

So lets home you guys are able to read this. Then again I have no clue if I will recive any comments or be abl to see them haha. Gotta work out all the bugs but I will figure it out

 

See ya ^.^